Agitated

the previous entry was a funny one to some. i can't blame anyone for finding it funny. after all, who else could flap her arms like a penguin in trans? that would be only me, i think. =)

agitated.

i never like this sort of physical reaction. it just gives you the feeling of uneasiness and sometimes, anger. there is only this one dream which i remembered clearly and it involved my sister.

in the dream, i appeared to be like the person who looked into a crystal ball. at first, i was like a spectator. but as the dream prolonged, i became involved in the dream. my sister was having an argument with her friends. the whole situation was so tensed that fire would have sparked for over-exposure to oxygen. but then, the tension led to a court-room drama. it looked somewhat like an interrogation by her friends. her sincerity was doubted. she was being given the spotlight for betrayal. i could remembered vividly how hard she tried to defend herself. but no one believed in everything that she said.

of course, i, being the elder sister would want to defend her as well. my sister could not handle the situation and the mockery which her so-called friends made of her. i was so angry at that point and got agitated. i scolded her friends for being so lousy and disrespectful. my sister did what she could to make sure that the friendship stayed alive. and yet at times when she needed friends, the friends deserted her. i was also struggling during the defence to the extent that i nearly gave up in the argument.

when i could not take the tension and stress anymore, i woke up. i woke up from the dream and that's the end of it. when the going gets tough, the tough gets you no where but there. just there.